One day far too soon when you aren’t so little anymore, I’ll be tucking you into bed and after you’ve pleaded for just one more story, you’ll look up at me with those big hazel eyes that I’m such a sucker for and say “Mommy, tell me about when I was a baby”… and I will.
I’ll snuggle down next to you and kiss you on your forehead and tell you how when you were a baby you were so sweet, that you had an infectious silly laugh, a favorite little puppy that you slept with, and chubby baby thighs that everyone loved. I’ll tell you about your sweaty little feet that you can thank your father for, and your mile long lashes that you got from him too. I’ll tell you how much you loved books, and children, and animals…all animals, but especially dogs. Maybe you’ll be a veterinarian.
I’ll tell you about how you squealed in delight when your Daddy walked in and how you’d flap your little arms like a baby bird trying to take flight. About how angry you’d get when you didn’t get your way, and that you made sure everyone knew you were angry – a quality that I think you’ve inherited from me. I’ll tell you how you loved your bath more than any baby I’ve ever known, and hated to get out at the end.
I’ll tell you how every night after your bath I’d comb your crazy hair down in an attempt to tame it only to have you wake up looking so goofy with it all over the place again. As you start to get sleepy, I’ll kiss you on your forehead again and tell you how so many nights I would sit with you in the squeaky rocking chair in your room with your head on my shoulder knowing full well that you don’t need to be rocked to sleep, but not wanting to let the moment go. How in those last few minutes before I laid you down I would close my eyes and just breathe in the memory, sometimes letting my heart swell until my eyes got teary realizing that one day all too soon, you wouldn’t be so little anymore.
My son, you were an amazing baby, and my first baby. You were more than I ever could have dreamed, and I love you.
Goodnight.