The past week has been rough in the Acosta household. In three days time, we went to the Dr’s office three times and the emergency room once. L.A. had croup, and P2 had a fever so high it had me sweating. We were scheduled to go away for a long weekend, and Thursday night that seemed like it might be a possibility, as L.A. appeared on the mend. Friday afternoon rolled around though, and it became clear that P2 was now the sick one, and L.A. really wasn’t doing as well as we’d thought. As I lugged both kids out of the Dr’s office for the third time, I was frustrated. With the situation, with the Dr, at the fact that we were missing out on a big family reunion we’d all looked forward to, with L.A. for throwing a fit as we walked out of the office, but most of all frustrated with myself for not having as much patience as I thought I would as a Mom.
I finally got both of them in the car, poured myself into the front seat and turned the car on when my eyes welled up. I tried to hold back the tears, but they came. I cried quietly for a moment and then wiped my tears away and glanced in the rearview mirror to see L.A. with the giant sticker he got as we walked out stuck to his ear. Despite his comical appearance, his face was studying my reflection intently, and with concern.
“Mama, Boo-Boo?” he asked. ”No honey, Mommy’s okay”, I answered with a smile. And the truth is, in that moment, I was. For every bad day as a Mom, there are 10 good ones. For every moment where I’m sure I could pull my hair out, there are 300 of joy. In that moment that I realized my child has learned empathy, and that matters to me a whole heck of a lot more than my frustration.
