For the past six months, I’ve had this overwhelming feeling that someone was missing from our family. I’ve never said that I needed to have another baby or really wanted to be pregnant, just that there was someone who was supposed to be a part of our family that wasn’t here. C and I talked about having a third, but I was on the fence…. the whole pregnancy thing, sleepless nights (or more sleepless than they already are with the two worst sleepers in America). We tabled the discussion and figured we’d re-examine our feelings next spring. Despite all of that, I still couldn’t get rid of the feeling that we had a void.
Flash to two weeks ago when we suddenly learned that C has a daughter who is almost six from a brief relationship he had while we were broken up back in 2003. To say we were shocked is an understatement, but we both firmly believe that everything happens for a reason. In this, it seems that the reason is to bring this Sweet Girl into our lives. We’ve met her a few times now and we are in the process of integrating her into our family. She is amazing. She is super smart, sweet, helpful, and already seems to be forming a bond with her little brothers. L.A. adores her, almost to the point where I wonder if he won’t become the pesky little brother in her eyes.
We don’t know what the future holds, but we know that we want Sweet Girl to be a part of our lives and our family from here out. She is the missing piece.
Watching C learn to navigate a world of princesses and pink makes my heart flutter… and to see the little looks that she steals at him. It just all feels right.
After our boys were tucked into bed the other night, SG wanted to show her Dad how well she reads, so the two of them sat together and she sailed through most of the pages, stopping occasionally to sound things out. Every once in a while she’d come across a word that she couldn’t get through, and he would lean over and try to help her. Sometimes he would softly whisper the answer, or just nod his head in encouragement if she was close. In the last picture, I was really just trying to get a shot of the book they were reading together, but instead I got something so much more. Look at C’s face… the way he’s looking at her? There’s love growing there, and it’s amazing.
by Crista
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